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Friday, March 15, 2013

Love Notes from the Lover of my Soul

I feel like it has been days since I last wrote. So much has happened. Life seems to be changing in front of my eyes. But to keep this from being REALLY L-O-N-G, thought I would share what the Lord has done for me today...

Dave had to have a transfusion this morning at OSU. He is still unable to drive, since his right foot is the one affected by the blood clot. So, I am the chauffeur for the time being. Well, our appointment time took us to Columbus during rush hour, and it brought us home during rush hour. I HATE driving in rush hour, big city, Friday night traffic. As we got into the heavy traffic this morning, I jokingly (but not so jokingly) said, "Jesus part the red sea-tail lights-for me"...I am not kidding when I say, every time we merged into traffic on our way over, there was a huge opening for me!! I was thankful and praised him each time. Could I be so blessed on the way home too??? YES!!! Every single time I merged into traffic today, it was wide open. This may not be a big thing for some of you, but for me, it said, "He sees the little things in this life that matter. If He sees them and meets those little requests, then He also sees the big ones and can meet those needs!" Just a little "love note" from my Jesus! WOW!

It has been 2 weeks today since this all started with the blood clot and it feels like a month. Days fly and yet they creep. I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride. I am usually pretty on top of things, and yesterday I went to Wal-Mart, did all my shopping then realized my wallet was at home, thankfully it wasn't on of those days in the last two weeks that I would have bawled right then and there. My brain has been spinning. We are making decisions that are hard to make when a person is healthy, let alone facing what we are right now. I really can't put into words, what all I have experienced in this "Foggy" 2 week period! 

God is really good at giving me visuals. I am sure as I blog, you will get a little glimpse into the very simple, yet so profound ways, he works in my life. I knew he would give me the visual for this time...and he did today...

I am the infamous Push Puppet...remember these? I am flailing all over the place, a little wind seems to knock me over. At times it is the enemy "pushing" all the wrong buttons in my life. I'm leaning left, falling right, you get the picture. 

But do you see what never changes?? What isn't moving?? The foundation. Through all of this emotion, physical stress and fatigue, the mental craziness, my feet are on the solid rock. They never move. I might fall down, but I get back up again. Life is full of demands-paperwork, appointments, trying to get financial help (more paperwork) kids, emotions, paperwork, forgetting your wallet and making a return trip to Wal-mart, falling in the mud at 6:15 am on your way to an appointment and having to run in and clean up, and did I mention, paperwork...?  But the foundation is sure. I am holding on to the truth that Jer 29:11 offers me...I have a hope...a future...and God has a wonderful plan for my life. 

God has not let me go. He sees me. ME! The God of this universe is collecting every one of my tears in a bottle (and there have been a LOT of them this week). He loves me. I believe as he watches this chapter in my life book, his heart aches for me, but at the same time, he knows the end of the story. He knows how this will be redeemed, how these ashes will become something amazingly beautiful!

On Christ the Solid Rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand, on Christ, the solid rock I stand!


  1. Stephanie,
    You do have a gift for writing. I totally understand what you mean when you say writing it down helps you to process it. Thank you for letting us see your journey. Keep your head up and know you are a inspiration to me.

  2. This really spoke to me alot!!! "He sees the little things in this life that matter. If He sees them and meets those little requests, then He also sees the big ones and can meet those needs!" Just a little "love note" from my Jesus!

    Also the reference about feeling like a push puppet and how the only thing that doesn't change is our foundation. Wow!! That's so true and we need to all realize that!
    Thank you!!